Hopes Dashed…Yet…
All my daddy hopes for you
Music
Movies
Literature
Studies
Confidantes
Hobbies
Maturation
Empathy
Curiosity
Connectedness
Dashed to the rocks
Shattered into a million shards of…
…nothing.
I don’t know when it happened
I don’t know how it happened
I don’t know why it happened
But it happened
And I am completely and utterly
Undone
Do all parents everywhere
Go through the same?
I wish it was so
Selfish I know
But if they don’t then
Woe is me
Lonely like a tree
Standing alone against
The relentless beating storm
That’s in my heart
But not on your face
Your stone face
For you seemed unmoved
A brick wall
An iron statute
A mountain
In the middle of my worse nightmare…
…Yet
I know I matter to you
At least as much as you to me
I know too that this is you being you
And that was me being me
Bawling
Bemoaning
Behaving hysterically
But I did calm down
Eventually
And told you I loved you
That it’ll be alright
In the end
Cause that’s what you’ve been
Telling me
All along
Just not with so many words
Just by staying with my pain
Listening to my rants and raves
Being here with me
While I fall apart
Then putting me back together
My son.
