In Time I Will
Time to breathe deep
To slow down
Feel my chest rise and fall
Shut the world out
Need the space
To find it again
Sanity
Tranquility
Serendipity
I can’t be long
Among the articulate
The pompous and loud
I need me my quiet
Where can I go?
Soon I’ll be living in borrowed space
At the mercy of another
Where can I go?
To get back myself
Find a roof over my health
Peace of mind and agency
What?! Three months more?!
An eternity!
Irony that to speed these months
I must slow down and take time
Discover a new oasis
Venture out for new finds
An adventure!
But first I must surrender
To the waves of despair that overwhelm
The fear that sits right below my heart
Side by side with strength from God
It’s okay I tell myself
Anxiety loves company
As do stability
No formulaic answers
Simply being
Slowing down
Experiencing
Living!
Let the tides wash over me
Drowning yet treading
Til I reach with strength dissolving
The still surface of freedom
In time I will.
